When I was little, I was so eager to grow up. Now, I am an adult but I wish I will not grow older. How ironic. Growing up is unavoidable but growing up means so much more than just growing up physically. I have experienced ups and downs in the recent years. All these eventually helped me in my growing up process.

I have been working for the past 2 and a half years now and I have come to learn that working life is not easy at all. Now, I can truly say that I appreciate all the hard work my parents have been doing for our family. It is my turn to work for the family.

Growing up needs a lot of courage. For me, growing up is a choice. We can always choose to live in our world and never grow up. I have chosen to grow up, to face the challenges and to be able to look back and say, "Phew, I have gone through that". It is a nice feeling, to be precise -bittersweet. Some has come into my life to help me grow. They come and they leave. Some will always remain and to grow old together. I am thankful for this journey of life. To be able to learn to love, to accept loss, to forgive and to love again. 

Again and again, I always wonder why is love so important in our lives? Will we die without love? Yes! We may not die physically but spiritually we are dead without love. In this process of growing up, I have learn to love, to love like how Christ did. I am still trying each day to love my neighbours as myself but trust me, it is not easy. It is not easy to be patient with those who always try their hardest to test your patience but yes I will keep on trying.

Here is my favourite hymn which has helped me in my process of growing :

Thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.
It is near the end of 2012..and yes it has been a great year..a year of love, a year of growth, a year of laughter, a year of happiness, a year filled with hope.

With a blink of an eye, I have been in Singapore for close to 30 months now. I have gained humility and patience throughout my time here. Life is always filled with surprises and unexpected challenges. I would never have thought I would be a customer service officer after getting a degree in Communications. How would life turned out to be if I had chosen to start a career in a PR firm or an event's company? Life would somehow be more "dramatic" than my current lifestyle if I would have chosen that path few years ago.

There are just too many "what ifs" and "I should have" recently. I can never turn back time, so why don't I continue looking forward instead of looking back and wonder what would life be if I would have chosen a different path.

Where do I want to go from here? Here's the question for me now.

My first visit to Bangkok. Shiok! 
Just one word to describe it.

It was rather a rash decision actually. As we were browsing through Air Asia' website last December, we decided to get the air tickets as they were on promo. Without much consideration we clicked on the payment button and only worry about leave application months after that.



Vacations are always fun..
whether a relaxing stay at a nice resort by the beach, 
or an adventurous trip up on a mountain or like us, 
a shopping trip in BANGKOK!!! 
I must say I love shopping in Bangkok.


All we did there was
it was our daily routine...and we enjoyed every bit of it...

I believe I enjoyed Platinum Mall and Chatuchak Market the most :)
So much to see, so many choices and $$$ is never enough, so we had to remind each other how much money we have left for the day. We even separated our cash in 6 portions. The day at Chatuchak and Platinum had the biggest chunk of Thai Baht as we knew we had to buy buy until our pockets ran out of cash.

Men will usually have lesser choices when it comes to shopping. The most common line that comes out of our mouth when we shop in Singapore - "Eh! Sui lo..but wah..the price also very ex lo!" (this looks nice but it is pricey). 
Or Jason's usual statement - "you girls good la always have so many choices and all so cheap, $10 for a top". And it's true. 
But when we were in Bangkok, these sentences weren't heard...because even Jason could find good deals, of good quality and at good bargains =)

We both equally bought quite a number of things. I've got shoes, dresses, dresses and more dresses. And he bought a bag, many many shirts, pants, belts and I can't really remember if he bought anything else besides these.

Mass in Thai :)


Lesson learned from this trip - to go with friends.
If you buy one piece, it's sold at retail price and if you buy two or three pieces, considered as get to buy at wholesale price..hahaha! 
So who's with me for the next trip to the Shopping Land?

It has been forever since I last posted anything here! 

Finally, I have decided to stop procrastinating and start to type. Today is a very special day for both Jason & I. Two years ago on this very same date, we decided to let love grow between us. I have grown a little "wiser" since three years ago. I no longer wallow in the past but have accepted it with a brave heart. I have used my past as a learning tool. Not to repeat the same mistakes. Not to take things for granted. And most of all, I now know that even if we give our all, it does not mean the world will give its best back to us each time. Simply because , as the saying goes , - THIS IS LIFE!

In all that we do, whether in our work or relationships, there should always be "check & balance". Always stop, reflect and pray for wisdom to know if we've been doing the right thing for the right person, at the right time. I have always thought that by loving with all our hearts and doing everything we can to care, we will always have love by our side. May be suitable for some but not all. Sometimes, what we may think is best may only be good for ourselves but not others. Therefore, always try to find out if what we are doing is right for the right person and also if it is at the right time.

I will end here with my favourite prayer :
I'm loving my life. Thank you Jesus!